Coffee Novelist

I don’t write about coffee, I write about what coffee does. How it collects us, unites us and affects us.

 

 

The novel we talked about.

 

H.B “”So are you here for work?” Howard Behar asked me. We had stepped outside to sit down at his table of choice.

 

‘For the week.” I responded with my trademark caution. I had not worked for Starbucks since 1994. I did run one of the first Barnes & Noble Starbucks cafes for about a year after that. Then I officially hung up the green apron. Yet, I was still nervous as I sat down across from him. It was strange for me to feel that way because, I did not recall being intimidated at all by him those years ago at Starbucks. Howard was low key and made the store visits painless. That thought in my head, I blurted out.

 

“What did you look for on your visits to Starbucks locations, stores, you know, back in the early 90’s in Chicago?”

 

H.B “Oh, I was never there to see how clean a store was in those days. Or have someone time a shot. I wanted to hear what the customers and baristas were saying about the company. We just wanted to engage with the people. The customers. The baristas. See how people felt about the company”

 

“The last time I saw you was at my Oak Park store. You were with Stuart Fields.”

 

H.B-“Stuart Fields. Yes. Do you ever talk to him?’

 

‘No.” I was a bit confused by Howard’s response for a moment. Then I realized he knew little about Tripio. It took only a couple emails to secure the front cover blurb from him. It was one of the easiest parts of the entire process of getting Tripio on Amazon, of the whole process of getting my “Starbucks novel” out to the expectant world. In fact, I actually didn’t start to write Tripio as Tripio, let alone a “Starbucks novel“. It was started as something called Chicago Days. I had intended it to be my homage to, or version of, Henry Miller’s “Quiet Days in Clichy.” I loved Henry Miller back then and my journals were filled with references to Miller.

 

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I intended to write Quiet Days in Chicago.

 

But they were also filled with references to Starbucks. I had five or six journals from those four years. All four years that I worked at Starbucks. The Henry Miller novella about a struggling writer was not to be. I could not write Chicago Days after all. I had to change it to a Starbucks centered book, because Starbucks was one of, if not the, center of my life then. The catch was, I did not want it to be! Back then I saw myself as a version of the struggling writer in “Quiet days in Clichy”.

That, 25 years later, became a story line in Tripio. Both of those currents in my life were soon overwhelmed by an unplanned pregnancy. What the hell was I to do? It’s all in there in Tripio. But I can tell you that if you look through all the journals from then you will not find a single entry that says, “I’ll write a novel about this in 20 years.” However, in a very real journal entry from the time I was writing what was becoming Tripio, I noted that “It is a novella for now“. Sitting across from me, Howard Behar, or “H.B.” as he is called in Tripio, had no idea about any of this. I did not pursue it. I answered his question.

 

“I did put Stu in the book. Do you remember Candace? Ted? Sue?”

 


Tripio Expert- I smiled and nodded but didn’t feel I could step out of position for another handshake. The end of rush regulars were in line so I thought it best to stay put and get this last line out. That is also why I hadn’t yet cleaned the spilled mocha on the outside door. It was about knee high on the glass. I had noticed it a while ago and saw no urgency in cleaning it up. See reasons above.

Of course, just after the RM (Stan)* made the eye contact with me he turned back to look at the door and the spill, defecated earlier from a customer’s to go cup. The customer didn’t seem to care, didn’t get any on him and so took off down the street. Again, no emergency on my part. Yet, it was obviously tape recorder worthy. Because RM Stan did half turn to get another look at the offending spill and held the recorder to his mouth, and quickly dispatched something into it. But he had to know that I had my reasons. That is why he gets paid, to know things without being told what to do. I was in the trenches. Always have been.

 

*based on Stu Fields, though not him really

 

 

 

Howard continued, oblivious to the excerpt. “Oh sure, Candace.”

 

 

For another minute or so, the millionaire former president of Starbucks and I traded names of a people we had worked with then. We were talking about a Starbucks that very few would recognize today. A regional company of around 450 employees, or partners, as they were called then. And still are.

 

H.B. ” I started in 1989 and remember not being ready for how cold it was in Chicago. I got sick. I lived close to the Oak and Rush store and remember people would bring me chicken soup.”

 

“I still have a big winter coat that I bought then. I may have worn it twice since I left Chicago for Indy.”

 

H.B. ‘So, you live in Indianapolis? Wife and kids?” Howard asked. I had relaxed by then. He seemed to be truly interested. I told him the short version. I was a single parent and had been for some time. Here, I spoke with pride about the grown adults my wife and I had worked to bring up”.

 

H. B. “Grand kids are even more fun.” Howard responded with a smile and a quick recounting of his own family.

 

It struck me as we talked a bit more that this was indeed a lot like the times Howard would pop into one of my stores. I remembered one time at a store in Lincoln Park (#206 in Tripio) when I was in back counting down a cash drawer, and he stepped in. We didn’t talk about the money in front of me, or what the figures on the recap sheet said. I remember that we just talked for minute or two. Not even sure about what.

As for today, he took a sip of his drink. I wanted to ask other questions such as what was he drinking and did he pay for it. Then I thought that to be inappropriate somehow. Anybody could do that. Starbucks meant too much to both of us. It meant so much to Howard because he was and always will be a big part of it. Starbucks will continue to be giant part of my life because I am no longer a part of it.

 

What might have been if I had stayed, kept getting stock beyond the IPO? I know what the math says. Howard and I would be sitting here outside this Palm Springs Starbucks comparing yacht buying experiences. Today, as we faced each other across the table, his day ahead was what it was going to be, and possibly did include a yacht. My day was one of going be one of going to work to pay the mortgage, which was a lot like the thousands of other days since I hung up the green apron for good.

 

I noticed H.B. scan the street in front of this Starbucks where we sat as customers, most likely looking for his wife and the dogs. Time was running out, so I did not bring that other visit up. After all, It’s not even in Tripio.

 

 

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I still have this one, though I use it when I am making dinner

 

 

 

 

                                              “One reason I write so slowly is I try to make each joke work.”

                                                                                        Kurt Vonnegut

 

 

This is a repost to Celebrate National Coffee Day 2024

 

Coffee

My personal history with coffee is very serious and very personal.

I was one of the few people on this planet who was granted hundreds of shares of Starbucks stock options during its IPO. Those shares would be worth well over a million dollars now.  I type here today without a cent of it in my pockets or elsewhere.

Years later, I was let go, fired, whacked, terminated by a small coffee roasting company. This happened with three or perhaps even four young children at home to feed, clothe and house. It was such a traumatic event fostering such a bad time, I honestly can’t recall the specifics. Needless to say, it sucked.

Yet, like the Lazarus of latte’s, I rose. Reborn out of the chaff barrel, I managed to find my way out of the coffee business for employment elsewhere.

Black Coffee

I have stayed out of the coffee business since, for reasons obvious and not so obvious. I am still asked why I didn’t go back into the world of coffee and seek employment. There are thousands and thousands of different jobs in coffee now than when I left. I still worked in coffee for years after getting fired. But that has been a while now and this coffee thing has done fine without me.

Indulge me for second. I am pausing here to consider whether all that emotional baggage has kept me from going back into coffee directly. Very possible. This is why releasing thoughts from the mind, through the shoulders, down the arms to the fingers, out of the body and onto the page is so, so important to me. I may have unpacked something just there. What you do with it is up to you. But I found it quite valuable.

How does this take me to yesterday and buying a rubber chicken for three bucks at thrift store? Because one thing I have consciously kept packed away in my mind is that I can’t’ take all this coffee stuff that seriously.  Not anymore, at least. Coffee has gone and done it, taking itself way too seriously. For proof, read this informative article from The Pourover Magazine, entitled Capitalism on Steroids.

The coffee industry has come a long way since the days of Folgers and Maxwell House. Specialty coffee is now big business, and the industry is awash with cash.

I’ve been there and am not going to do it again. After depending on coffee for my livelihood and to feed my family, and have it taken away, I’m supposed to care about latte art and randomly crowned barista champions? I’m not saying they don’t have a value, just none for me.

Here is the part where I cover my ass and say all the right things about how I am a first world consumer and have enjoyed coffee via the systemic exploitation of the third world producing countries. You won’t find me doing that here. It would compromise to some degree the times I dialed the Hoosier Helpcard phone number to see how much money was left on it, so that my wife and I could budget on food for our kids. I will always remember the automated voice and the pause before she told me the amount. This is my story here.

Black coffee with humor

I think all this added up to me choosing to make the coffee saint, Kaldi, the bad guy in my second novel, The Trier. In the follow up novel, I have continued to use coffee in ways that may be sacrilegious to the baristacrats, to use a word Robert Downey Jr. has claimed to have created. It is a much safer distance from coffee for me. Tripio was my first coffee novel and in it, I took coffee very seriously. Years later, and farther away from counting on coffee to eat, I wrote The Trier and began to put humor in my coffee. I liked how it tasted. And so, I put more in The Trier Goes to London (working title), with no intention of stopping when I begin to revise that novel in a month or so.

Maybe I’m writing to extract a measure of revenge on coffee. I have created worlds where coffee can make me smile a little bit. I still like my coffee black, no artificial sweeteners, but with a dose of very real, hard-earned and organic humor. It just goes down better much better that way.

This is repost to celebrate National Coffee Day 2024

  Robert Downey Jr.? Seriously?

 

 

Writing books

Would you buy a book from the guy behind that table? I hope not. I wouldn’t, even if it were me. But it was me at a Half-Priced Books south of Indy back when my first novel Tripio had been published early spring 2019. Yuck.

 

I look at that photo now and see that I have come a long, long way. But that is such a boring thing to type. Yuck.

 

What I remember most about that day was my daughter spending the entire time with me. If not for her, I wouldn’t have spoken to or interacted with a single person. She was raised a book lover and browsed and shopped while I sat and stared.

Buying Books

I have a better memory of the two of us in Chicago at the Newberry book festival a couple years earlier. I bought a handful of used books, while I had to carry one of the two boxes of books she bought. When I said my daughter was a book lover, I was not kidding.  I’m just happy to know that she loves her dad too.

 

Not Selling books

Copies of Tripio sold- 0.   I have come to realize that bookstores are tough because I feel like you are competing with everyone’s all-time favorite authors.

 

“For after all the great religions have been preached and expounded, or have been revealed by brilliant scholars, or have been written in fine books and embellished in fine languages with finer covers, – man-all man-is still confronted with the Great Mystery”

-Chief Luther Standing Bear

  Oglala Sioux

Let’s keep it that way

“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo.
“So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

 

The word decide is often used in business, or football, or while shopping. He decided to sell the stock, or he decided to punt the ball on fourth down. I decided on the yellow scarf and not the blue one. I decided on the Alfa Romeo and not the Volvo. I decided on the apple and not the oranges. I decided on the Taco Bell instead of McDonalds. I decided on Dunkin’ instead of Starbucks. All this before we even log on to our computer at work.

Given the time

 Nobody is making me write. I’m deciding to do it. I don’t think there is such thing as a muse. Is sounds romantic and poetic but calling it that is, to me, a form of external attribution. A way of giving your ability to write or not to someone or something else. Hell, no. It is a decision only you can make.

Sounds simple. I decided to write two novels. But the word I want to focus on is time. Time. You see, if it doesn’t take time, it won’t be worth doing. It may feel like it but that is a delusion to keep people clicking away to the next delusion of accomplishment, and the next, and the next. This is best performed phone in hand on the couch via Instacart, while the fridge is empty.

The time given to us is the price we pay to create a lasting physical, mental and spiritual impression on our lives and selves: a feeling of accomplishment. Time cannot be cheated. Don’t think it can be. It is taking its cut of every decision we make and always, always wins.

Time and time again

Not trying to sound morbid here since I’m referring to day-to-day life here. I’ll be the example. It takes time to anything. But time takes back. And that is the reward. The time given us, used, gives back the enjoyment, satisfaction of what we do with it. It is the price we pay to get something out of our day-to-day lives. I think this blog began last night as I settled on the couch after a long-ass week and day at work. I found that I was grateful to be able to do that. Not for the week, really but for all the years raising four kids and hardly ever getting to settle down on the couch. I still appreciate the ability to decide to do that.

That doesn’t mean I’m wonderful person, it just means time makes the rules, and if you leave it all on the floor, and time sounds the buzzer, you will walk off the court happy, win or lose.

Time given us

I decided to write the two novels I blog about. Well, I decided to write my novel called Back outta the World. And a YA novella called Ironjaws. And I have my third coffee novel completed and awaiting revisions. I revised Back outta the World at least three times. Tripio at least that many times. And on and on. It all took time that was given to me. It cost me something I’ll never get back.  But it was time very well spent. I know because I feel a bit of loss in saying that, but I should.

Dude, try Jasper or Grammarly.

 

“Why don’t you write about meadows or something?” Asked the Headmaster, played by Stephen Fry.

“I‘ve never seen a meadow,” Replies the student, played by Hugh Laurie.

“What do you think the imagination is for?” Responds the Headmaster.

 

What do you think the imagination is for?

 

Being Ritulistic: Meadow Surprises & The Three Surprises

 

I was reading a post on writing historical fiction when I came across the line, if you can do research and have a good imagination then you can write historical fiction. That is true. But I would replace historical fiction with any damn thing you want.

I remember telling myself that I was having fun doing research and reading books and articles for The Trier goes to London. Sure, I like reading and drinking coffee. And drinking coffee while reading. However, I’ve done those things will filling out Income Tax or FAFSA forms and renewing my driver’s license. The other night, while watching the Fry and Laurie skit for the 43rd time, it occurred to me why writing TGL was fun.

It was fun because I was using my imagination! Yes, it was not stuck in closet somewhere in cardboard box next to my 8th grade report card. I was using my imagination and having a blast! Making up stories, creating characters, and having fun things happen to them. All in a world I imagined! I was making it up as I went along.

Unpack the imagination

Maybe that last line scares adults. When we make stuff up as we go along in our adult lives, things do not usually go well.  It is fine to make up a world, set the rules of that world, stick in on your laptop and sign off when things aren’t going so well. You can always pick up again tomorrow and try again. I am sure that is the appeal of writing- the imbedded belief that you are in control of something for a change. Even when creating your own world. However, I wonder if that is true?

The freedom lies not in gaining control, but in releasing the illusion that universe, or anyone in it, is taking any notice of us at all. There is great joy in acceptance, in not trying to be the smartest person in the room, in not writing a book, but letting yourself imagine one.

 

It is a lot more fun to imagine than to write

 

Why? Because writing can be as difficult as you make it. One hears a lot about how hard it is. Yet, I feel like a lot of that is the writer telling the world that they are wonderful, courageous and brilliant for doing something so challenging. Hey! Look at me, I’m a hard-working adult suffering to produce a novel. One’s imagination is more likely to draw something like a fish carrying briefcase, and just keep going with that, see where that leads, not accepting, rejecting or judging. Not seeking to separate via the ego.

The imagination is a less stressful place to be, and a wonderful place to be when you are using your mental energy to write. It can be coffeehouse in London in sixteen seventy-five, a meadow or anywhere you want it to be. And you can get there anyway you like, at any time, along whatever path you care to take.

 

 

What would happen if just didn’t pay my taxes this year? Would anyone care?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The lost place

In order to finish the first version of the second book of my Trier series I had to start the third. There’s a lot going on in that one short sentence, not the least of which is that it sounds like the start of a word problem from high school math class.

However, I did the same when I finished the Trier. I felt like I needed to see how it “landed”. It worked for me. I discovered that I had my work cut out for me in the opening of the second novel, which I’m calling The Trier goes to London. The first challenge was making 20th century Probat commercial coffee roaster a time machine. Then, I realized that in the book, The Trier goes to London, that the trier doesn’t actually go to London. It stays in the hands of the 800-year-old Ethiopian goat herder named Kollo. But that is what will make the revisions fun.

 

 

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An inconvenient booth

An inconvenient booth

One other opportunity presents itself when writing a time travel series based on the energy of coffee is that you can chose to put the next novel anywhere you like. The first two novels were set in the history of coffee.  I began reading Uker’s classic The Romance of Coffee in order to dig up to a spot for the fun to take place. There is no shortage of options since the history of coffee as we know it goes back 800 hundred years, spans the world and is filled with greed, commerce, rivalry, slavery, discovery, lies, lust, and deceit. Almost too good to be true.

I had almost too many choices. So many so that I looked into placing the next novel in the future of coffeehouses.

My space?

Except there may not be one. Our consumer centric society seems so intent on mining people’s mania for ego-separation and instant gratification (by the way, there is no such thing- sorry, I don’t make the rules), that we may no longer have very many spaces where we actually have to tolerate other people. No place will exist where we have to cooperate, assimilate or defer to each other, even for a moment. No way I drink the same coffee brewed for the guy in line in front of me, or the woman behind me. The horror! No thanks, I’ll sit in my car, on my phone, and be pulled somewhere else while doing so. Why go inside and sit near anyone, hear a bit about their lives from the booth or table nearby?
Why form even a momentary connection to someone when I can be told by Instacart that I’m too important to even think about feeding myself? Me, eat every day? I’m way too important to scratch out a grocery list.

Why are drive-thru only coffee shops suddenly popping up all over Louisville? (yahoo.com)

The future home of Scooter's Coffee at 9200 Westport Road, seen on June 27, 2023. Scooter's is rapidly expanding in Louisville.

A coffeehouse for cars

 

A shared space?

The growth sector in coffee these days is coming from drive up chains like Scooters, Dutch Brothers and 7-Brew. I spend a lot of time on the road for my job and can confirm this with my own eyes. At the same time, I cannot deny that my favorite coffee house is a spacious one, with enough space and tables for me to get away and read or write without having to hear people talk.  Yet, I find there is a certain energy that I like to be a part of that is generated by people in coffeehouses. It is a way to connect to the personal and universal at the same time. That is a good thing for coffee novelist, at least.

I may be a little dramatic here, but there is just not enough room for a cast of characters, fun plot twists and dashes of humor in the passenger’s seat of someone’s Chevy Gratuitous. It just does not seem to be a very good location to set a novel based on the type of community coffeehouse’s have always been known for. Or am I missing something?

I will hopefully always be able to sit down at an inconvenient booth, open the laptop and write about a time when we had to tolerate each other, gather for a few minutes, and drink the same coffee as everyone else. Did we all enjoy that option? Not all the time, no. But I think we are rewarded more than ever these days for mistaking the easiest thing for us as being the best thing for us. Something to ponder while waiting for your next coffee to arrive via DoorDash.

I hope my coffee is still hot when it gets here.

 

The goal is to commit to a structure that can take on a life of its own, instead of creating only when the mood strikes. – Rick Rubin, music industry superstar.

I am a system. – James Harden, NBA superstar.

 

A structure

 

I am not sure if there are a lot of similarities shared by Rick Rubin and James Hardin, except for they both sport beards. However, this morning I am getting them acquainted just by writing this post.

You see, yesterday I finished my novel, The Trier Goes to London. I know I did because I found that I became a little emotional, my eyes getting wet with mix of sadness and joy and a lot of other emotions to boot.

This morning, I am doing the same thing, only there is no more to do on TGL. I know that is total nonsense of course. It is more accurate to say I finished TGL for the first time. A revision awaits, but I’m postponing that until it gets warmer.  I can do that in a different environment, my front porch. Plus, it will give the manuscript time to hang out with my subconscious mind and work out what needs to be done. In a month or so, I’ll be ready to access all that.

But for now, I am a structure.

I built a structure

There was not a single morning in the writing of The Trier, or of TGL that I sat around and waited for the mood to write to strike. Ah, hell no.

I am just guessing here, but I think I got up and wrote 300 mornings and maybe missed a dozen. My muse, if I had one, would have given their two weeks long ago if I asked them to put up with that schedule.

The structure is built on pillars that have nothing to do with writing as found and defined in Dreyer’s English. It is wonderful book for writers.  I found it funny enough that everyone who picked it up would enjoy it. But it would be of limited use to read without a structure around you.

Years ago, I went about building structure. It took time, trial and error and attention to detail. The pillars are captured on a chalkboard hung in my garage. I have visited these so often over the years that I do them these days out of habit. These are the pillars of the structure I built that I sit in now, that I sat in the past 300 days, and wrote another novel. I committed to them and in return, I sit contented within their walls and write, a novel, blog post, or an email or two.

I furnish my structure

The books or blogs are really just the sofa and coffee table within the structure that I built. And, I have a lot more room in here.

 

 

Shopping for a recliner.